Seeking to contribute to a supportive community

Hello! I don’t even know where to start. A year ago I left an abusive 18 year relationship and have started on this healing journey to find myself after so many years…sad at 51, yet here I am. I have come to realize I just don’t fit in with the society around me, everyone is so fake and I’m tired, so tired of having no support because everyone wants to bury their heads in the sand with distractions of substances and every other thing society shoves at us…leaving me alone because nobody I know wants to do anything but distract from their lives then come to me for comfort, but nobody is there for me because they are too busy distracting themselves…when I am always there for them because I have blocked out every distraction to work on myself. I am looking for a community that I can contribute to, that will surround me with the support that I surround everyone else with. I’m so tired of this fake world of make believe that everyone lives in. I was trying to go back to school online after being a stay at home mom for so long, but I can’t continue to live like this, it’s no life…I live in such a rural area that the only thing people do here is drink, drugs and sleep with each other…long story, but I’m open and honest.