Jiejing Celestial
August 20, 2025
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Looking back on thirty-six years of life, I finally understand:
In this half-life, I have been wrestling with two forces within me—
One is the fiery yang energy, blazing, aggressive, devouring;
The other is the gentle yin energy, soothing, calming, nourishing.
Sometimes they clash, sometimes they entwine in tender embrace,
And I am the earth—
Scorched by flames, yet nourished by clear streams,
Breathing slowly between heat and gentleness.
- An Armed Childhood: From Fragile to Martial Woman
As a child, I was a sensitive and timid girl. The taunts and punches of boys often drove me to hide in corners, my heart racing, palms sweating. That helplessness, when repeatedly confronted, grew into an obsession in my heart—I must be strong—strong enough that no man can hurt me.
So, I embarked on an unusual path. While others went to dance or painting classes after school, I repeatedly stepped into martial arts studios, donned my uniform, and put on protective gear.Taekwondo, Sanda, Boxing, Jeet Kune Do… one skill after another became like musical notes, and the dull thud of hitting punching bags became the most familiar rhythm of my youth.
I once thought that swinging my fists could dispel fear. Yet behind the growth of strength, a spark was quietly planted in my heart—aggression. Like a flame lying dormant in my blood, quietly waiting for the day it would fully ignite.
- The Spread of Fire: Aggression Scorching the Body
In 2011, I graduated from college and stepped into society. I thought that with my “armored” self, I could walk more steadily—but the real test had only just begun.
My father’s dominance and harshness, my mother’s nitpicking and expectations, workplace setbacks and collisions, compounded by emotional wounds, made me like a stick of dynamite ignited by fire, ready to explode at any moment.
In the factory workshop, I argued almost daily with male supervisors, my emotions so intense that my palms would sweat. Their tempers flared, and disputes often ended with “chairs thrown, fingers pointed, and furious shouts.” When night fell and the clamor faded, all that remained in my heart was a torn emptiness, like cold wind sweeping across a desolate plain.
Psychology tells me that prolonged anger keeps the amygdala in the brain in a state of hyperarousal, overactivates the sympathetic nervous system, and eventually leads to insomnia, inflammation, and weakened immunity.
At that time, I was like an engine running beyond its limits, on the verge of collapse.
The fire repeatedly burned others—and repeatedly burned myself. Between flames and ashes, I gradually began to understand a little: what destruction is, and what the price can be.
- Spiritual Pursuit and Another Collapse
During those chaotic days, I was fortunate to encounter Lifechanyuan and later reside Lifechanyuan International Family Society China Branch. Those were three years of relative tranquility.
The companionship of sisters and the pure, clear environment allowed me to briefly taste the nourishment of “gentleness,” like a warm ray of sunlight in the midst of winter.
Yet the obsessions in my heart had not truly been extinguished. When a gust of emotional turbulence blew from the outside world, the long-suppressed fire flared again. I lost control and even unintentionally hurt a few members around me.
At the end of 2014, I left the Second Home and returned to the secular world. From that year until 2023, I wandered for eight years: I worked as an English teacher in tutoring centers and institutions, did foreign trade, and other jobs. Outwardly it seemed ordinary, but my inner world was still tightly gripped by aggression.
Insomnia made every night a restless struggle. Plasma cell mastitis tormented my body. My weight soared from 60 kg to 95 kg, my chest felt heavy, and breathing became difficult. My marriage broke down due to illness and pain, my parents passed away one after another, and I became a solitary woman, trudging forward with every step feeling like walking across a barren wasteland.
In the darkness, I often asked myself: Is my life truly destined to be completely consumed by aggression?
- Turning Point: Rebirth in Lifechanyuan International Family Society Thailand Branch
In April 2023, fate opened a window for me—I was arranged by Guide Xuefeng to live in Lifechanyuan International Family Society Thailand Branch.
Over two years, miracles quietly unfolded. My weight naturally dropped from 95 kg back to 60 kg, my body gradually healed, and my face and eyes regained the lightness and clarity they had fourteen years ago. Yet deeper than this external transformation was my initial understanding of the mysteries of energy within.
I remember that night—aggression surged like roaring flames, my chest felt ready to burst, and the urge to harm nearly pushed me over the edge. Instinctively, I clenched my fists, the fingertips pressing painfully into my palms. Then a miracle happened: the fire was temporarily contained, and the flames burning in my heart slowly calmed.
I cried, like a child. Through my tears, I kept confessing to the Greatest Creator. In that moment, I finally saw the two forces within me:
Aggression—an extreme of yang energy;
Serenity—the natural flow of yin energy.
Science and spirituality converged here: when angry, the body enters “fight or flight” mode; when calm, the breath slows, the parasympathetic nervous system activates, and the body begins to repair and restore itself.
It turned out that the demonic and divine forces within me were nothing more than the interplay of yang and yin—the symphony of fire and clear spring flowing at the heart of my being.
- The Mystery of Yin-Yang Energy and Sexual Love
Guide Xuefeng revealed in the essay LIFE and Energy:
"The universe is an energy mass utilized by LIFE, containing only three elements: structure, consciousness, and energy.
Structure, consciousness, and energy are the three essential components of LIFE. Without structure, there is no LIFE; without consciousness, there is no LIFE; without energy, there is no LIFE.
Structures naturally absorb energy, and different structures absorb different types of energy.
The process of LIFE is essentially a competition for energy. Those who acquire more energy will thrive; those who acquire less will have fragile and short-lived existence; those who can continuously obtain a steady flow of energy will enjoy a perpetually enduring life.
The universe is engaged in an ongoing energy competition. A person’s life is a continuous struggle to gain energy, rising and falling through the great river of energy gain and loss.
Energy is divided into yin energy and yang energy. Yang energy forms matter, while yin energy forms the soul.
Males possess yang energy, and females possess yin energy. Females lack yang energy, and males lack yin energy.
In psychology, the Oedipus complex and Electra complex essentially describe children’s quest for energy from their parents. Generally, girls are drawn to their fathers, and boys are drawn to their mothers because girls need yang energy, and boys need yin energy.
As children grow up and the energy provided by their parents becomes insufficient, they begin to seek energy from the opposite sex. The ultimate purpose of marrying the opposite sex and seeking lovers is to acquire energy, even if people may not be consciously aware of this.
Children rebelling against their parents implicitly aims to protect their own energy from depletion and to seek additional energy from their parents through rebellion.
Conflicts between couples are essentially struggles for energy.
People with bad tempers often lack energy; their needs are unmet. Those who are depressed, emaciated, weak, lacking confidence, timid, talkative, eager for fame, complaining, dissatisfied, full of hatred, pretentious, and so on, are in such states due to insufficient energy.
To acquire energy, people have learned to control others. Nations, ethnic groups, political parties, religions, organizations, and individuals all strive to control others. Once they control others, the energy of those controlled becomes theirs.
A typical example is the mutual control between spouses. At the beginning of a relationship, mutual love leads both parties to release energy to each other, creating a pleasant and comfortable experience. However, as energy is consumed, they begin to control each other to absorb the other’s energy. Arguments, fights, tantrums, ignoring each other, sulking, pretending to be ill, and even threats of death are tactics used to vie for the other’s energy. Wives may prevent their husbands from interacting with other women, and husbands may prevent their wives from interacting with other men, aiming to prevent energy leakage.
The more powerful a man is, the more he needs a woman’s energy. The gentler a woman is, the more she needs a man’s energy. When energy from one partner is insufficient, one may seek it from others.
The universe is filled with energy, and there are countless ways to obtain it. Unfortunately, humanity has focused on plundering natural resources and controlling others, neglecting other avenues.
All human conflicts and contradictions stem from the struggle for energy. Marital misfortune and sorrow arise from attempts to control each other’s energy.
For humans and nature, as well as for human interactions, to coexist peacefully, efforts to control one another must be abandoned. Nations, religions, political parties, and organizations must dissolve. For couples to achieve happiness, they must relinquish control and domination over each other.
Life can be infinite, as long as you can elevate your frequency of thought and directly obtain a constant flow of energy from the universe. Do not rely on others for energy. As long as you can recognize beauty and possess selfless love, you can access an endless supply of energy.
Learn to release energy. Only by releasing can you receive. The more you release, the more you gain.
Never attempt to control others. The intention to control others not only harms them but also depletes yourself.
Seek energy from the Greatest Creator!"
I finally realized that all energy in the world can be divided into yin and yang:
Yang energy constitutes matter and gives me the drive to act;
Yin energy nourishes my soul and fosters tenderness.
Men are naturally dominated by yang energy, while women are naturally dominated by yin energy. If a woman lacks yang energy, her initiative and drive are insufficient; if a man lacks yin energy, gentleness and introspection are missing. The balance of yin and yang energy is the foundation of physical, mental, and spiritual health.
Sexual love is not merely physical intimacy—it is the fusion of yin and yang energies. In the touch of the body and the resonance of emotions:
Yang energy flows from the man to the woman through his initiative and passion;
Yin energy flows from the woman back to the man through her gentleness and receptivity.
Energy circulates, nourishes, and harmonizes between the two, awakening overall yin-yang balance and promoting psychological, physical, and spiritual well-being.
In the Second Home, under the values of “The Reversal of Heaven and Earth, Respect for Women” and “Freedom of Emotional Love and Sex Love,” every female member is free to explore her emotions and desires, but each member must first cultivate her own spiritual garden. Only with a pure heart and balanced yin-yang energy can body and soul truly unite.
In a space of respect, safety, and freedom, female members’ yin energy is fully nourished, and male members’ yang energy is properly guided. The soul garden and sexual needs bloom in harmony, and energy flows naturally like water, bringing inner serenity, mental peace, and physical health.
- From Fire to Clear Spring: The Dance of Energy
I finally realized that the “weeds of the soul” that had entangled me for so long—jealousy, comparison, anger, and complaints—were nothing but the flames of yang energy. They came fiercely, scorching my heart and consuming my inner calm.
But when I learned not to struggle, not to rush, to be gentle, and to accept, yin energy quietly began to flow. It felt like a clear spring seeping into parched earth, nourishing every corner of my heart and allowing those around me to feel gentle serenity.
Guide Xuefeng mentioned in Women Are Beautiful in Their Gentleness:
"In the traditional Chinese philosophy of Yin and Yang, women are likened to Yin and men to Yang. Yin is gentle, Yang is strong. With this balance, the universe is harmonious, righteousness prevails, and peace and good fortune follow. But if Yang becomes gentle and Yin becomes strong, the universe will fall into chaos, families will break apart, marriages will dissolve, and people’s hearts will turn wicked.
With just a little observation of life’s ups and downs, one can see that whenever a woman becomes too strong, her surroundings are filled with anger, resentment, melancholy, and sorrow. Delve a little deeper into the inner world of these excessively strong women, and you will discover their loneliness and struggle. They cannot find a soulmate, they feel unsupported, and beneath their tough exterior lies hidden frustration and anger, a grievance toward their own fate.
“All things carry Yin on their backs and embrace Yang in their arms.” This “carrying Yin, embracing Yang” is a harmonious mechanism, a sequence of auspiciousness. When a woman becomes too strong, it’s like “carrying Yang and embracing Yin.” How can a man “carry Yang”? He is already naturally Yang, so adding more Yang will inevitably create a “like repels like” effect. Similarly, how can a woman “embrace Yin”? She is naturally Yin, so adding more Yin will also create the same repelling effect. Two strong Yangs clash, and two Yins conflict—harmony cannot be achieved.
Unless a man has become feminized, all men prefer gentle and soft women. Strength balanced with softness leads to success, but no truly masculine man deep down will ever truly love a woman who is equally as strong. The more masculine a man is, the more he admires a woman who is soft and gentle. “The mountains are tall, the waters are blue, and the girls of Ali Mountain are as beautiful as water, while the young men are as strong as the mountains.” How harmonious, how beautiful!
There was a time in China when “strong women” were praised everywhere. Hearing this made my skin crawl. But it’s understandable, because the men of that time had become weak and were no longer strong and masculine. The poor “strong women” had no men by their side and were forced to take on the role of strength. This is a tragedy for men, a tragedy for women, and even more so, a tragedy for the nation.
A woman’s gentleness can overshadow all flaws. No matter what she looks like, what her figure is, how knowledgeable she is, or what her status is—if she embodies gentleness, she is beautiful, captivating, and endearing."
I have truly come to understand some now. Gentleness is not weakness; it is the abundance of yin energy. It allows relationships to heal, brings warmth between hearts, and helps me slowly recover from suffering.
Looking at the world, why is there endless war? In my view, it is due to an excess of yang energy and a scarcity of yin energy. If human souls are not purified, they will ultimately self-destruct. The core value of Lifechanyua is: “Revere the Greatest Creator, revere LIFE, revere nature, and walk the way of the Greatest Creator.” It is this purpose that gives meaning to the Second Home, restores yin-yang balance, and allows the soul to find peace.
- Conclusion: May I Become Gentler
Today, I still feel surges of anger, and the flames of yang occasionally strike me. But I am no longer afraid, because I understand—if yin energy flows gently, the fire no longer destroys, but transforms into warmth and light.
I wish to continue my sincere cultivate, letting yin and yang energies dance harmoniously within, making my soul more serene and my actions more gentle.
I am grateful for the protection and blessings of the Greatest Creator;
I thank the gods, sages, and celestial beings for their teachings, which have helped me discern good from evil and purify my heart;
I thank Guide Xuefeng for patiently leading me onto the path of cultivation;
I am grateful for Lifechanyuan Values, which has inspired my inner awareness and serenity;
I am grateful for the physical sanctuary of the Second Home, where I have learned the flow of yin-yang energy and attained inner balance.
Without all of this, I might still be the child consumed by anger.
Now, however, I wish to become someone who embodies both the fiery yang and the gentle yin,
blending light and water, returning to balance, and resting in peace.
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